10 facebook status updates you missed (because they were in my head)

Don't drink and Facebook

1. I'm screaming...why can no one hear me?


2. I'm after blood today and I'm not gonna stop until I get it


3. Hip hip hooray for happy hour...at home :(


4. I. NEED. SEX. DESPERATELY


5. I feel so sad and broken.  Will someone put me back together again, please?


6. New Milestone: I made it to 6:13pm without a drink. Woop!


7. I want to die.


8. First time in 2 weeks I've woken up without a hangover. Yay for me!


9. I feel soooooooo alone in this world.


10. My life is completely fucked.  What I need is a fuck.  Maybe I'll feel better then?

Terrible Love

It's a terrible love
And I'm walking with spiders
It's a terrible love and I'm walking in
It's a terrible love
And I'm walking with spiders
It's a terrible love and I'm walking in
It's quiet company
It's quiet company

It's a terrible love
And I'm walking with spiders
It's a terrible love that I'm walking in
It's a terrible love
And I'm walking with spiders
It's a terrible love that I'm walking in
It's quiet company
It's quiet company
It's quiet company

And I can't fall asleep
Without a little help
It takes awhile
To settle down
My shivered bones
Wait til the panics out

It takes an ocean not to break
Company
It's quite a company
It's quiet company

And I won't follow you
Into the rabbit hole
I said I would
But then I saw
Your shivered bones
They didn't want me to

It's a terrible love
And I'm walking with spiders
It's a terrible love and I'm walking in
It's a terrible love and I'm walking with spiders
It's a terrible love and I'm walking in

It takes an ocean not to break
It takes an ocean not to break
It takes an ocean not to break

Written by Matthew D Berninger & Aaron B Dessner 

Lead me. Please.

                 Anaïs Nin

Despite being separated officially for only 6 months, I feel very ready to move on.  

Well intentioned friends keep telling me 'the professionals say wait at least 2 years before you resume a new relationship'.  In all honesty dear friends, you have no understanding of this heart of mine nor the road it has walked over the last 14-16 years.  

Am I needy to admit I want to be loved? That I crave to be touched and cherished? 

I've had the fortune recently to experience a very brief but intense relationship.  Sadly it ended rather tragically, but still...it gave me a window into what really being in love is.  It is wonderful.   And, I want someone to love and someone to love me in return.

I especially love this quote by Anais Nin

“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”

Me too.