I'm tired

I am not tired of forgiving

But I am tired of not being forgiven

I am not tired of finding excuses for you 

But I am tired of finding flaws in me

I will never tire of being a door mat; a punchbag

But I am tired of not finding one to let my grief out

I am not tired of never judging

But I am tired of being judged. All the time.

I am not tired of justifying every wrong action and make it right, 

I am tired of not having someone to justify mine in the right way for me

I am not tired of finding the beauty in the beast 

But I am tired of people finding the beast in me

I am not tired of understanding

But I am tired of being misunderstood

I am not tired of wearing my heart on my sleeve

But I am tired of having it trampled.

I am not tired of doing a million things

But I am tired of being found fault for one.

I am not tired of Life 

But I am tired of life trying me out, to my very end.

~ taken from 'The blog of small things'